Jesus, please respond.
1:50AM —As I sit here at my kitchen table studying for my last final exam, I can only think of how excited I am for what is to come after this semester comes to a close. Although I am not confident in how well I will do, I know I will be okay. I didn’t do too hot this semester but I’m not going to sweat it. —(whoa, breakthrough)— But why the sudden change in behavior? Because while I was already in the middle of an anxiety attack, a little voice inside my head reminded me that my big sister once said to me, “Maiyer, it’s okay to fail sometimes.” *deep breath* —-thank you, sissy. I needed that. You will never know how much it means to hear that from you.
— I get to close this chapter of my life at 2:00PM tomorrow, and that will be the end of Sophomore Year. College wasn’t ever supposed to be this hard in my mind…I planned to go straight through, push, excel, and graduate. But that’s not how it works. That’s not how anything in life works. I know that now. And I’m okay with it. I know that God has me in the palm of his hands. He has a will for me, and in knowing that He does, instead of wishing that His will be done in me, I pray that my will would be His. “Not mine, but your will be done.” God has already made a way, so why am I still fighting? Why are we all still driving our own lives? The future is out of our reach. We have today, we have our faith and we have God’s grace. That’s it. So take a leap. Listen to His voice. Fulfill his will. Get that crown!
—one line (powerful and true) out of my newest song ‘Constant and Raging.’
All I want to do is praise. James and I always think about walking into someone’s church just so we can praise, even if it’s a Monday. My gahhh. Cannot focus on school anymore. #givemeJesus
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” •Psalm 147:3•
Lord, I trust in you.
I wrote this entry this past December 31st, 2012: my 20th birthday. I just read over it and I’m literally blown away right now at how much has been happening to me since then. I asked for answers, growth, God’s guidance — and here I am, in the midst of all of that being granted. Best birthday gift EVER. So far, 2013 has been the best year ever. And the year has just begun. #reasonswhyibelieve
i just remembered myself this time 2 years ago in my lonely hospital room trying to write my story of recovery while listening to “heaven song.” i never finished it. —i think i’ll finish it this week. #redemption
I say to you that my God is able. He is love and I have Him. I have love in all it’s entirety. I need not say anything more.
“…that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with the fullness of God.” |Ephesians 3:17-19|
a dearly loved,