“"For I fully expect and hope that I will never be ashamed, but that I will continue to be bold for Christ, as I have been in the past. And I trust that my life will bring honor to Christ, whether I live or die. For to me, living means living for Christ, and dying is even better. But if I live, I can do more fruitful work for Christ. So I really don’t know which is better. I’m torn between two desires: I long to go and be with Christ, which would be far better for me. But it is desired of you that I remain in the body to live so that Jesus Christ may overflow in me." *Philippians 1:20-26”—
“You stole my heart from this world and you gave me life, so let my heart trust in you. Let your love carry me through it ALL. Won’t you take me away?”—Good Lord. Connecting with this so incredibly strong right now.
4 hours of lab&lecture today. Texting activated. Attempts to text failure. -___- Missed the only show that I watch. Found my show online. Now going to watch it and K.O. like marvel vs capcom. monday over.
The kids and I woke up early to surprise mommy with a little candlelit cupcake alongside her birthday gift (: The greatest thanks to God for blessing us with such a beautiful and wonderful mommy. ♥ Missing Maishoua on this special day.
So I’ve come up with this label for myself that I quite like, the sophisticated doodler, now that I have purchased my fifth personal journal book within the past 3 months. That or I can just call myself a journal junkie. (: I love my little collection of elegant and adorable journals. Sketchbooks are actually starting to be my preference for writing. I find it to be prettier. Call me a perfectionist if you’d like, but keeping things neat and pretty to look at are important to me (excluding my bedroom, haha). It makes me happier to look at my journals and planner and see that I don’t have to scramble to find something or become frustrated while trying to read something illegible. My padfolio and my Smash story blogger are my current faves. I bought a Smash story blogger for my sissy, too. We loves it!
So it’s officially Christmas Day. I’m finally done doing everything that has stolen my free time this break. Shopping, done. Wrapping, done. Editing a million photos for momma’s gift, done. Winter classes finalized, done. But what do you know… the one thing that I set out to do this break was to sing, write, and make covers, and yet they remain undone. +__+ I’m beat, bleh. On the other hand, Christmas will finally come and go, which means that time permits for a few free days before my birthday comes and everything becomes crazy again. It doesn’t feel like Christmas this year, though. :/ There is no snow on the ground, there are no snowmen or forts outside, and christmas music has not been my month-long playlist this December. God’s trying to tell us something, and I think we’re supposed to be listening. So I’m going to be a weirdo and I’m going to listen after this awkward Christmas is over with. And then maybe I’ll be able to sing back to him in song. Maybe I’ll learn something, hear something, then translate something. (:
I may sound crazy but I had a little talk with God and did some career homework and came to a conclusion.
Because it’s worth it, I’m going to make studying a permanent daily routine. With practice I’ll learn to not dread it, hold off on it, or avoid it. It’ll simply become easy for me to study if I practice it. I don’t even know how to study if you really ask me. So to me it’s worth more than every second that I spend trying to lose weight or having fun or wasting. How the heck else will I ever get into Pharmacy School?
I start NOW.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
“So we don’t eat until our father’s at the table. We don’t drink until the devil’s turned to dust. Never once has any man I’ve met been able to love. So if I were you my friend, I’d learn to have just a little bit of trust.”—
+I Aced my English course. Exempt from the Exam this Friday, Yay (: +2 More chapters of projects and tests to cram for my online class before Friday. No exam. So I’m left with Math and PolySci. Going to study my brains out for PolySci — I shall be M.I.A until break. (: Gooodbye, World.