Dear Jesus, 

I know you have a plan for me..and I know that you have blessed me with a voice to sing. But I am torn between which path I am supposed to take. Out of the blue I am faced with the opportunity to be heard by the public and to share my music for the first time.. and at first it’s an exciting idea, but deep in my heart, I don’t want to. I don’t feel that I need to be there..showcasing my talent at a gig to see how people will respond to my music. I’m not afraid to sing, I just don’t want this. My family is encouraging me to do this and to take the chance.. but what my family and everyone else doesn’t understand about me is that I don’t want to perform…I could care less about being famous. Being famous was a dream when I was young, but now I see that all I want to do is minister through my music. Performing can be done by anyone, but by having Christ in ME enough to minister to others— it’s all I could ask for. I don’t know what your plans for my life are but I will wait. I don’t want to make any decisions that might possibly change me. I don’t want anymore negativity and sin around me. And the music industry is just that. It’s booming with sin and negativity. Nobody’s ever good enough. I understand that I have to start somewhere if I want to spread your word, but I know that it’s not with the people that I’ve been given a chance to work with. They are not people that adore you and fear you and that scares me. I’ve been so vulnerable and I don’t want to be hurt by going for something that I don’t feel sure about. I don’t know if you’re sure about it, either. I’ve learned that performing promises me nothing. Only you have promised me eternal life with you. So I want to minister to the world. One step at a time, I know you will lead me through this.

A hopeful,

glo